Barnegat Bay in New Jersey

Another dream post.  Last night’s dreams were another in a series of dreams in which the events of the dream occur in the same location I’m sleeping in.  For example, three days ago just before leaving for New Jersey I was sleeping in a Chippewa style wigwam which is pretty much what I call home these days.  In this dream several friends had stopped over to check out my new home in the woods.  It was a pleasant enough dream with everybody laughing and their faces lit up by the full moon.  When I woke up everything looked exactly like it had in my dreams minus the visiting friends. It was in fact a very positive dream and put at ease some of the doubts I’ve been having lately about the whole idea of living in a primitive shelter.  Unfortunately last night’s dreams along the Jersey shore were not quite as reassuring.

Strange dreams, if only I could remember them.  Yesterday I woke up in a blind panic after having slept soundly for at least six hours.  When I woke up the world was spinning, I don’t mean like I woke up and felt hung over or a little tipsy.  No when I woke up yesterday I felt like I was descending on a roller costar or trapped in an airplane corkscrewing down to earth.  I was violently dizzy.

Being half asleep I was in a confused irrational panic unsure what universe I had woken up to – all gravity and no bottom, falling, falling…I rolled on to my stomach and got on my hands and knees.    Eventually I made it on to my feet and after about 5 minutes of total confusion I was able to regain some sense of balance and wandered over to LongHall.  Thinking food was the culprit, I ate a couple of bananas.  No sooner had I tried to lie down and relax for a spell then the world started spinning again.  I had to stand up.

All day I felt lightheaded, like I was tripping on LSD.  I even had the thought that maybe I had ingested something sinister, maybe food poisoning.  That was impossible thought because I had just been sleeping of at least six hours.  I found that as long as I was standing or sitting up I could maintain  control but if I lied down and really started to relax I would slip into a kind of trance which would start pleasantly enough but would then escalate into a feeling g vertigo resulting in a panic, a feeling like I was losing control, as though the laws of physics suddenly broke down around me and I was getting sucked into the sky.